DreamWeaver Magazine

Anetta "Nettie" Morse

Monday my life crashed like Ivan hit Gulf Shores last September.  The more I did the less I could cope.  I tried to step into my stillness, be quiet, and listen to God talking.  I picked up my Red Pen to let God show up on the page in my journal.  I called my friend Kate to help me see my life events with a broader perspective.  I scribbled my fears on the journal page in an illegible way.  A client called to make an appointment for a coaching session because her life was in a shambles and she thought it was because Mercury was in retrograde.  A close friend called that evening crying because his dear friend was rushed to the hospital and was not expected to live through the night.  I panicked and my stress level went out of control.  I went from a pleasant blissful Sunday to a crash and burn Monday and all I could do was hang on and pray.  What did I learn?  In twenty-four hours I learned more about myself than I had in a year.  I learned to treasure my fears.  They were my greatest teachers.

Wild dreams woke me at three o’clock in the morning.  I fixed a cup of gourmet coffee with my favorite Hazelnut creamer and toasted and buttered a piece of Hazelnut poppy seed bread.  To hell with dieting.  I needed comfort food.  My journal laid in my lap, I picked up the Red Pen and waited for God to show up on the page.  “Beloved, you are more blessed than you know.  Feel calm enter you and the way to do that is to carefully write every letter perfectly.  Take time with your life. Love, God.”

I sipped my coffee and nibbled on my toast and with effort I carefully wrote every word legibly.  Calm began to seep into my troubled mind.  I was able to let go and see how the Monday events went together like pieces to a puzzle.  My friend Kate reminded me that I did not have to do everything myself I could ask for help.  What a novel idea that was!  When I said to her, “Why can’t I figure out my own problems, I’m wise enough to help others?”  Her reply was, “That’s what life is all about and makes it fun when you can take the hand of a friend and walk with them until they get what it is they need to know.  We take each other’s hand like we do a small child to help them cross the busy street.  Create your day with your thoughts.  Begin with knowing everything can be easy and effortless.”

I picked up the book “Ask and It is Given” by Esther and Jerry Hicks.  I flipped the pages open to the section on how to organize your day/life when you have too much to do.  It advised me to take a piece of paper and draw a line down the middle.  On one side write down all the things you have to do and want to do.  Next, organize them into three categories.  Make a list that you must do today and a list you can put off until another day.  Then, create a list to give to God and then let it go.  This is a “Nettieized” version, but I must practice and live a truth to be able to make it mine.

The project I was working on that caused me so much stress prompted me to call an accountant, who told me “You are so organized we have all we’ll need and we’ll call you when it’s finished.”  That was easy.  I could cross the first thing “to do” off the “my” list.  I called another person for help but I was inarticulate so they lost patience with me.  I moved this particular item to my “Scarlet O’Hara list of tasks for another day”.  I moved to the next item on my list.  A friend sent me an email suggesting the movie “Finding Neverland” with Johnny Depp, Kate Winslet, and Dustin Hoffman.  The library had it, held it for me, and it is a see twice movie.  I picked up the rose quartz stone I bought years ago from Ken Harsh, the Stoneman and carried it around in my pocket all day.  I worked in my yard and talked to my neighbors.  Where there were glitches in my life I made a phone call immediately and fixed it.  I took a walk around the block with my three-year-old grandson and we noticed all the birds singing in the trees and marveled at the bright colors of the flowers.  I felt the warmth of a little hand clinging to mine.  In twenty-four hours my life turned right side up and was fine again.  What happened?  I’m not sure why the crash but I also knew I did not need to focus on what’s wrong but go for what feels good.  When I began to ask myself when I faced each dilemma, “How does this feel?”  I was able to move closer to being aligned with God.  I created an energy that drew to me people and events that were helpful.  Choices became a learning adventure when confronted with the tugs and pulls of life so that I could find my perfect balance.  I learned that I am who I am for a reason.  I am a part of an intricate plan.  I am a precious and perfect unique design called God’s special person, as we all are.  I employed the power of positive quitting to ask for help and find a better way to think and plan my thoughts, to dream again in a new way.  I stopped doing things that were not creating the results that I desired.  As Jim Allen says, “When you quit all the things that aren’t working for you, when you quit tolerating all the negative things that hold you back, you’ll create a positive ‘charge’ in your life as well as create the space in your life for more positive experiences.”  Amen Jim Allen, it does work!  I treasure my fears because they show me a better way to live my life.

Annetta “Nettie” Morse is a writer, Intuitive Tarot Coach, and journaling teacher. If you have questions or want to make an appointment she can be reached at nmorse@computechnow.com for group sessions or personal consultation.